February 3rd, 2018 Week 5th Saturday

Life takes on the meaning that you give it.

你赋予生活什么，生活就是什么样子。

I always wonder why on earth I am here and why on earth I am living the current life.

I always wonder what is the purpose of my life, whether I can be a man that is somewhat useful to others.

I always wonder why I acutally exist on this beautiful planet.

These questions, subtle but profound, may have different answers in different stage of my life.

For the current moment, my answer is very simple, to be a skilled coder that can work out some feasible solutions to all the projects I am engaged in.

Very simple, isn't it?

But it is always easier said than done, particularly to me, a man whose willpower is weak and always gives up in the half way.

Now that I have been very clear about my weakness, the only way that can add some meaningful things to my life is to overcome these problems.

Try to make every task I start done with a satisfying result, try to discover my gifts and talents.

I am sure I can find the meaning of my life and the very answer about my existence.

The heart of man is very much like the sea, it has its storms, it has its tides and in its depths it has its pearls too.

人心似海，包容万象，有暴风雨，有惊涛骇浪，但在最深处也有璀璨的珍珠。

From Van Gogh.

But I think my heart is not like the sea at all, it is very much like a pool of water, quite shallow and lack of enough resources to breed any valuable thought and achievement.

I really expect my heart can grow up into a deep sea with abundant nutrients that can give birth to some amazing creatures.

But how to?

Make the pool as deep and broad as possible, and fill it with water of knowledge and wisdom.